I do believe I've posted a blog very close to the topic I am about to post now, but it seems as if we brothers (meaning men of all race), just don't understand, marriage, ownership, property, respect, and a bunch of other shit.
Now those who know me that I get upset when I have to hear from one of my friends that they were hurt, by their partner, especially when the hurt involves RAPE.
I never understood how Man came up with the notion that a woman was his property, and that he had the right to dictate and do as he damn well pleases with her.
And let say it now, please don't let some damn fool reply that it is in the bible. -Go back and read your bible!
Is there any guy out here who knows the hurt, pain and mind-set that comes from the act of raping your other half? -And saddly, a lot of women are raped by their husbands and boyfriends. We as husbands and boyfriends (protectors) are suppose to honor and protect our women from stupid assholes who have no interest in their well being. -We you do something like this, how do you feel? -What bullshit do you tell yourself? -How do you justify this sick act in your mind?
I am not going to go on and on about this, because I don't take people to be stupid, just fuck up, at times. I would just like to see a brother step up and admit they had forced themselves on a woman, and tell me what was they thinking then and how do they feel about that act now?
William and Yvonne's 25 year marriage is on the rocks. Tired of her husbands infidelities Yvonne abandons him and their 5 children and gallivants off to the Bahamas with her new love interest, Robert. But William has faith that his wife will return to their family. His faith is based on the knowledge that Yvonne is not only his life partner but that their union was predetermined.
William needs Yvonne to help him unravel the mysterious and dark psychic talents he possesses. Yvonne can help him because she also possesses special talents which she battles daily to keep contained. Yvonne is terrified of the ramifications of anyone finding out about her talents. She's aware of the past mental instability that lies within the women of her family so Yvonne ignores her special abilities in hopes of avoiding the crazy house. But when confronted by a witch doctor in the Bahamas Yvonne finally accepts her predetermined purpose. Making the decision to return home isn't hard but will it be too late to help William? If that's the case than her only choice is to kill him, but can she?
Shadows of the Heart is an intense read. Author Lord' Williams skillfully intertwines a love story with something much darker. A battle between good and evil in a modern day world where a select group of people possess the power to save the entire human race. But when those powers are contained within everyday people who's hearts also contain lust and desire can the spiritual win out against the flesh? Take a ride with Mr. Williams as he reveals what lies beyond the shadows of the heart.
Becoming an self-published author isn't as easy as many would think, or running a publishing company as well. All the things that your traditional publishers would do for you like marketing, promotion, distribution, warehousing, and arranging book signings is all left up to you. Okay let it be known, that the big publishing houses doesn't do too much of these items either, but what little they do, can help a lot.
I'm a self published author.....no wait, most true self-publish authors would not call say I'm self-publish, for the fact that I used an P.O.D. publisher who placed their name on my book as the Publisher. So in their eyes, I was published, but I am not self-published. -And they might be right. One of the cheapest items I could have paid for was an ISBN number, and bar code. The total cost would have been under two hundred dollars, and what make this so bad was, I knew this much going in.
Now with that, a good question to ask is, "what didn't I know, when I chose to go the P.O.D. route?"
What I didn't know was I am my publisher biggest customer. The thing about using P.O.D. publishers is they sale you on the ideas of you having this great flexibility, and full control, yet their service is affordable, and easy.
I can say, yes it's easy to use their service, which still depends on the level of service you are purchasing, and it is easy to submit your work and get a printed item if you so desire out of the deal.
Lets take my debuting novel "Shadows of the Heart"
A great book mind you, the initial retail price for this novel was $21.99. I'm not stupid and I don't think anyone else were either. I know the public was not going to pay $21.99 for a paperback book from a "who are you, author?" -Hell even if they did know me, who wants to pay this type of money for a book during a recession?
So I opt to purchase a package that would knot the price down to $15.99. Still a dollar above the national average, but they had to pay me a royalty, and that royalty is $1.00 per book sold, instead of the $6.00 dollars I could have made. -Do you get it? I had to cut my royalty to make the book affordable.
Now that's not bad. I can live with that. A dollar per book sold, is cool, some authors isn't making that much. Here we go, the part that got to me was, how my publisher bragged about the author's discount could be as high as 65% off the book price. Sounds great right!
No, it wasn't because that 65% was off the original book price of $21.99, and not the $15.99. Meaning for me to get that 65% I would have to order a minimum of 1000 books that would have cost me $7.70 per book, which is equal to $7,700.00. I don't have this kind of money. Now you see why I said you would be there best customer.
If I did I would have went the traditional self-publish route of putting out 10 to 15 thousand dollars for my first run. -Still if I would have done my homework, it would not cost me half that much. At the moment it's cheaper for me to advertise and promote my novel than it is for me to buy it and sell, because discount starts at 40% for me at $21.99, which is about $13.19 each, not including the shipping. Luckily I'm also a book retailer, meaning I can get my 40% off the actual retail price like all the other retailers, which is at a cost of $9.59 per book, but even this is too high to purchase the book to sale, or distribute, which is a completely another story and topic.
Okay so what is my solution to these issues? Do what I avoided from the start, be my own publisher completely from pen to shelf. -I'll tell you how it's done in another month or two after I've gone through the motions.
Peace
P.S. Oh and please buy the book from amazon where it's currently $12.95 at the time of this written blog.
Last week I was watching the news, and they brought on this mother and her daughter. Nice chocolate peoples. The mother was pretty. I'll give it to her, she was a cutie and had it going on. The little girl, her daughter wasn't too bad, but she had some disfiguring in the face and all. Now I'm going to keep this real. This child was shot three times as she shield her from the bullets, and was shot by her mother's EX-boyfriend.
Now I hear about craze boyfriends going off the deep end all the time here in the big city, and I'm sure it happens almost every other day some guy is blowing his woman, or ex-woman away. But I got pissed when I look at the little girl who had to battle and learn to walk again, to talk again, and under go so many operations. I wish I could find the article for you to read it for yourself.
What.....What I really want to ask is....."How f*** up in the mind we?" This man shot this 4 or 5 year old little girl because he was about to shoot and kill his ex-girlfriend. He was arrested stating, that he couldn't have her, no one will.
I don't know how many brothers out there feel this way, but if you do, or ever did.......Go find some help. You have not matured enough to handle a relationship. Love can make you do some things you would never conceder, but murder should never be on list. If you love her, then love her enough to respect her wishes. Love her enough to respect the rights God gave to her.
If you can't handle separation, than you should never hook up. Yo, just keep some money in your pocket and buy a piece of butt, and switch up this way you don't get fixated on no one woman. Better yet, get some help.
I'm not trying to be funny here, but for real. If you have issues like this one, let me be the first to tell ya, you acting like a self-centered child and your attitude needs to be checked.
Living through your worst nightmares. Have you ever been in a relationship where your lover, made you live thought the worst things you prayed would never come to pass? If so what was it? How did you live through the horror?
Do you still think about them? Did you learn something from them?
I was just thinking and while traveling back, I remember something my wife said to me and that was, "I live through all my worst nightmares with you. There's nothing left you can surprise me with."
A strong statement. One that made a bastard like me go hummm. But she was wrong, I still haven't brought her home any outside babies. I think that's the last shocker I have left, and I never want it to come to pass.
So what's up, do you still have some shockers left, or have they all come to pass?
